JackD42
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I’m currently 4 weeks into my NPP cycle and while I’m enjoying the physical results, the paranoia and anxiety are becoming overwhelming. I’m finding it hard to sleep at night, and I keep having intrusive thoughts that I just can’t shake. Normally, I consider myself to be mentally strong, but this is really getting to me. My wife hasn’t done anything to trigger these feelings, but they’re still happening.
It probably doesn’t help that on the first day of my NPP cycle, my wife went out with my stepdaughter. She was supposed to be gone for just a couple of hours, but she didn’t return for over six hours. I found her car abandoned at 3 a.m. at a restaurant she was supposed to be at. I even filed a missing persons report because I hadn’t heard from her or my stepdaughter. Eventually, I learned that she had been drinking with her daughter and some friends in another county, without texting me to let me know. It was totally unlike her, and it really planted a seed of doubt and mistrust, which I’m sure contributed to the paranoia from the 19-nor compounds.
The next weekend, she went out again, and of course, the anxiety hit. She was running late, and in my head, I was convinced she was doing something shady. The following weekend, the paranoia intensified—thoughts like “Why does she prefer spending time with others over our family?” or “Is she seeing someone else?” These thoughts aren’t rational, but they feel so real and convincing, and it’s hard to break free from them.
It even started affecting how I view her social media. I began imagining that she’s messaging guys on Instagram and having secret affairs, even though I know the messages are just harmless and the guy is overseas. Still, I couldn’t shake the feeling that she was planning to meet up with him, and that seemed completely plausible in my mind.
There are also thoughts about her wanting to get her breast implants redone, which I know isn’t something she would do for anyone other than herself. But my mind starts spiraling, imagining that it’s all to show off for other men. These thoughts are out of control and feel so real.
Before starting NPP, I was never this way. I didn’t care if she went out, and I had no issues with her having a social life. But now, the jealousy and paranoia are seriously affecting me. I just don’t know how to manage it.
Options I'm Considering:
1. Finish the full 8-week NPP cycle and hope the paranoia subsides.
2. Lower the NPP dose for joint relief (which I do find beneficial) and see if that helps with the mental side effects.
3. Drop NPP altogether and switch to a straight Sustanon cycle for the remaining weeks.
Has anyone else experienced similar feelings while on NPP or other 19-nor compounds? I’d appreciate hearing about how you handled it or if you found a way to manage the mental side effects. Any advice would be really helpful!
It probably doesn’t help that on the first day of my NPP cycle, my wife went out with my stepdaughter. She was supposed to be gone for just a couple of hours, but she didn’t return for over six hours. I found her car abandoned at 3 a.m. at a restaurant she was supposed to be at. I even filed a missing persons report because I hadn’t heard from her or my stepdaughter. Eventually, I learned that she had been drinking with her daughter and some friends in another county, without texting me to let me know. It was totally unlike her, and it really planted a seed of doubt and mistrust, which I’m sure contributed to the paranoia from the 19-nor compounds.
The next weekend, she went out again, and of course, the anxiety hit. She was running late, and in my head, I was convinced she was doing something shady. The following weekend, the paranoia intensified—thoughts like “Why does she prefer spending time with others over our family?” or “Is she seeing someone else?” These thoughts aren’t rational, but they feel so real and convincing, and it’s hard to break free from them.
It even started affecting how I view her social media. I began imagining that she’s messaging guys on Instagram and having secret affairs, even though I know the messages are just harmless and the guy is overseas. Still, I couldn’t shake the feeling that she was planning to meet up with him, and that seemed completely plausible in my mind.
There are also thoughts about her wanting to get her breast implants redone, which I know isn’t something she would do for anyone other than herself. But my mind starts spiraling, imagining that it’s all to show off for other men. These thoughts are out of control and feel so real.
Before starting NPP, I was never this way. I didn’t care if she went out, and I had no issues with her having a social life. But now, the jealousy and paranoia are seriously affecting me. I just don’t know how to manage it.
Options I'm Considering:
1. Finish the full 8-week NPP cycle and hope the paranoia subsides.
2. Lower the NPP dose for joint relief (which I do find beneficial) and see if that helps with the mental side effects.
3. Drop NPP altogether and switch to a straight Sustanon cycle for the remaining weeks.
Has anyone else experienced similar feelings while on NPP or other 19-nor compounds? I’d appreciate hearing about how you handled it or if you found a way to manage the mental side effects. Any advice would be really helpful!
